– I can never do what I want. Or rather, I never do what I want. Or rather, I do, only I can’t do it when I want to. Or rather, when I want to, I don’t do it. Or rather, I don’t want to and I don’t do it. Or rather, I’ll do it when I want to. Or rather, I could do it if I wanted to. If I had time for it, I’d do it!
– If you wanted to do it, you’d make time for it.
– I’d make time if I loved doing it. I don’t do it because I don’t love it. So I don’t do it because I don’t want to, because I don’t love it.
– Then why are you agonizing over it?
– I’m agonizing over it because I’d like to want it and I’d want to love it, only I shouldn’t have to do it.
– Then you still don’t want it and don’t love it, you only do it because you feel that sometimes you have to do it.
– I don’t have to, I rather just feel the need sometimes to want to do it.
– So you’d do it out of compulsion, if you did it.
– I never do anything out of compulsion; I only do something if I love it.
– So then you’re confirming again that you don’t do it because you don’t love doing it.
– No. I’d love doing it if I wanted to do it. Or rather, I want to do it, only by the time I gather myself to do it, so much time has passed that I don’t really have time left to do it anymore, and if there’s little time, then it’s no longer worth starting to do it.
– However, if you felt it was important, then you’d start doing it even if you had little time for it.
– No. This is important. Or rather, it would be important to me to do it, but there are things I have to do, because it’s urgently important that I do them.
– So now you’re looking for excuses so that you can’t do what you don’t want, what you don’t even love, and what isn’t even the slightest bit important to you? – I see you’re not listening to me! I’d want to, and I’d love to, and it would also be important for the preservation of my peace of mind that I do it, but I can’t do it because I don’t have time for it. There’s no time left for it today. Tomorrow I’ll try again. Tomorrow…